mother

The opportunity never presented itself for my mom and I to get personal. She never expressed to me in her own words why she is in the position she is in. I can only infer as to why she is in the position she is in.

When I think of my mother being defeated by her shortcomings I feel frightened because I do not want to be defeated by own shortcomings like my mother has been by hers. We all know that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. So I have to keep pushing myself to achieve because I don’t know if my mother’s shortcomings are innately apart of me.

At times it is disheartening to face the fact that I do not have a close relationship with my mother and more than likely never will. If we were closer perhaps I would have a better understanding of who she is.

At times I think of know who I may have been if my mother played a significant role in my life. Would I have benefited from my mother’s presence? No one knows the answer to that.

Despite the trails I have encounter in regards to my mother presence or lack of I just keep on living, learning, smiling, laughing, loving, dreaming, believing, achieving and I cry when I need to.


I encourage you all who have a mother or a father who is not apart of your life to do the same. Prove against adversity and keep on persevering!